Month: April 2011

Lost in thoughts

29 April 2011 | Day 043

4:32 pm

I don’t know what to write about today. Really.

Well, I’ll just talk about AF2, which I managed to finish today after forgetting to continue doing so during my Boracay trip and the days after. Different from the first book, Artemis Fowl: The Arctic Incident does not feature Artemis in criminal mode. Instead, he plays the role of a son who longs for his father, a team player and a comrade to the LEPrecon unit and other fairies, and a student who needs to consult the school’s psychiatrist because of his actions. The book is nice as it portrayed Artemis not being so evil and going along the good side.

Well, that’s it I guess. I’ll be reading AF3 soon.

– Erson (4:40 pm)

Sad and tired

28 April 2011 | Day 042

6:57 pm

Seeing dead animals did not help me recover from my frustration on Amazon. It just added more emotions. And exhaustion.

I was so sure that rabbits won’t last here in our place the time I saw my family bringing down five pairs of rabbits in their cage from the car last Sunday. And I was right. Today, two died and two seem to die some other day. Too bad.

I, together with my mom and bro, cleaned up the mess of the two dead rabbits. We separated the remaining eight on two different cages and gave them more than enough water to drink on. We figured out that not everyone of them get to drink enough from the container provided that hangs beside the cage.

Dead rabbits are not a good site to see. Trust me.

– Erson (7:17 pm)

Tired of Waiting

27 April 2011 | Day 041

4:39 pm

I have waited for almost two months. And yet four DVDs had not arrived from Amazon.

It is supposed to be the last day of my long wait today. I should have received my order last April 6 but I did not. People from Amazon told me to wait until the 27th but I still got the same result.  I took the risk. I guess I should not have. I’m tired of waiting. If it will arrive, then good. If not, I hope I can refund the money that is not mine.

Today, obviously, is boring since I was waiting from morning until before I wrote this blog. If not for Bruce, this day would be so frustrating. I like how Bruce is as a dog. He is adorable, playful but at the same time quiet, and so malambing. Hopefully, as I have always wished since he arrived in our house, I can be a good master and trainer to him.

I’m sorry there’s nothing else to tell. This day is ruined because of Amazon. I just hope Ginebra takes game one of the finals tonight against Talk ‘n Text. That will at least make my day a little bit okay.

– Erson (4:48 pm)

Wet and wild

26 April 2011 | Day 050

4:42 pm

I was left with no one but Bruce this morning. And we had some wet and wild fun.

Taking good care of a dog not only includes food and affection but more importantly attending to it from head to toe…or tail, I mean. Today, I gave Bruce some well-deserved shower and I believe he enjoyed it. Bathing a dog isn’t easy. Aside from the fact that dogs are constantly moving from one place to another, dogs to that shaking-their-bodies motion every now and then especially when they’re wet. And that’s what Bruce did. Every once in a while during his shower time this morning, he does that funny dog motion, making me completely wet from top to bottom. It wasn’t easy, but it was sure fun…and obviously wet.

Today, I learned something. Dogs love blowers. No, not blowers…the air from blowers. Too bad I can’t find our blower here at home so I improvised and use the reverse function of our vacuum cleaner to dry him up. And Bruce loved it! He never left his spot while I dry him up. He even was tilting his head once in a while and angling his body to dry himself up. How nice of Bruce!

Bruce slept in my room this afternoon while I was sleeping as well. I opened my eyes from time to time to look at him and he was just curled like a ball beside my bed. He may be playful, but he sure is a good sleeper!

This day is extremely fun, thanks to Bruce that is. In the next few days, I promise that I will take care of him better and hopefully make a good trainer to him.

– Erson (5:00 pm)

Entering the Blue Nest: My Freshman College Application Essay

Are there any significant experiences you have had or accomplishments you have realized, that have helped to define you as a person?

In a world filled with vast desire for reign, power, and supremacy, one must stand out from the idle crowd and start the change. One must raise the hand of conversion and begin filling the empty holes and spaces. One must spread the wings of actions and show the earth that the greatest crave should be the longing for love, value, and God.

As the world’s progress upsurges every minute, more and more events continue to pile up to mark a legacy in the book of history. With every tick of the clock, a lot of occasions are changing the earth little by little, may it be good or not. Some brings peace, while most influence a lot to fly with the cast of the unknown, to vanish in an instant. Everything has changed. Everything is constantly evolving.

I have been in this world for almost 16 years now and I’ve been exposed to a lot of things, people, and events. I have seen a lot, witnessed a lot, and joined a lot. Everything differs from one another, none is the same. The thirst for earthly belongings just seems to eradicate every moral from the grounds that every man is standing.

I’ve opened my eyes in this world as a human-android who is always aiming for triumph, gold, and title. Being raised by a family wherein defeat and failure are big NO’s, I’ve been directed to never have bent knees, never collapse on a certain thing, and never allow someone to rise above me. I’ve been targeting everything – medals, praises, attention – throughout my entire life for, as how I see it, it is my road, my path, my destiny.

And so, for almost my entire existence, I was a competitive geek, a humanoid who thinks nothing but honor and glory through conquest and victory, a living model with all shining metal pieces hanging on his neck. I was then smart, intelligent and bright. I was a consistent title holder of the most precious “first honors” from grade one to my junior year in high school. I have reigned in every contest, surpassing every challenger and demolishing every competitor. I gained praises, claps, words of wisdom and acknowledgement, high fives and even high tens if there are such.

The status quo of staying on top had been always a challenge for me. It is not a piece of cake. All eyes were on me, focused on me – watching every move, every step. One mistake would mean a noisy growl of insult plus the fact of receiving ear-splitting sermons and hours of reprimanding. Thus, it is clear that I should commit no error. Yet, I was just a human and it was hard, very very hard.

The gold, victories, and triumphs, after all, were my greatest nemeses in achieving happiness and satisfaction in life. Only then, I realized that I never experienced true bliss in 16 years. These things did not even lift any positive emotion in me. I envy my friends who were all happy, yet no recognitions they contain. I envy the average students who are living a simple life yet managing to flash a meaningful smile every now and then. I was just like an old-fashioned robot – no anything.

I tried to change, but it was never easy to reach the light when you need to be in the dark. Eyes were still on me, still spotting everything. I tried to be like my comrades, humble and meek and know how to smile yet it was no easy crack for I need to be on top. I attempted to turn away from everything I used to do, but no, I can’t do it for it is attached with me forever.

Later then I realized that what and who I need is God. I tried to be faithful, to be devoted, and it worked and still works. “Prayers can move mountains,” thus said my mentor and I finally found out that it is true. I believed. I prayed. I experienced God’s love.

In the end, the awards, recognitions, and appreciations are just decorations in experiencing God’s love. I still continue to reach the top, but now I know that I have the greatest weapon I can carry that will bring me happiness as I receive gold. Today, I know the definition of being a person, and it’s not a matter of winning, but playing the game in the presence of God’s love. Now, I can define myself as a person, and not any alien or bionic person.

“Try not to be a man of success, but rather to be a man of value.” – Albert Einstein.


25 April 2011 | Day 049 | Daily Scribbles Special

I never expected last night would be so fantastic. If you’ve read my blog yesterday, you know that I was left here alone at home until about 10 pm. I was just watching the triumphant Ginebra Kings last night as they removed Chris Tiu and Smart Gilas from the playoff picture. I was hungry, sleepy and had a minor headache. Until my family went back home.

I always wanted to have a cute little friend dog at home. I have one Poodle, named Happy, since I was young but he never had the chance to stay in our house. Last night, as I peeped through our back door to welcome my family back home, I was surprised to see my little bro holding a black and white Shih Tzu on his hands as he went down of the car. Though it was intended to be his pet, well, at least, I can have someone to play with from time to time aside from my little bro. He isn’t getting any younger anyway.

Angelo told me that he had not given the dog a name yet so I took the initiative to do so. I named him Bruce. Well, since Shih Tzus originated from China, and since Bruce Lee, the greatest martial artist in the world, came from Hong Kong, which was part of China before, I named the dog Bruce. Nice name etymology isn’t it? I’m magnificent!

Bruce is so playful and very friendly. While writing this entry, he is here beside my foot sleepily lying down. He doesn’t want to be left by us and always wants company. He is voracious, not in a bad way as the word sounds. Oh Bruce, welcome to our family. It is nice to have you here.

Bruce can’t go without any reinforcements. He came with some free little cute bunnies (yes, it was Easter yesterday). Five pairs of cute rabbits and a dog, woohooo!

Happy Easter

24 April 2011 | Day 048

5:14 pm

Happy Easter everyone! And with the happy resurrection of our Lord, I created, as promised, a new feature in Flaming Eternity.

Just moments before writing this post, I’ve already created the new Essays category and published two posts on it. Click here to view. Continue subscribing to Flaming Eternity for more good essays. More will be coming in the next few days.

Well, today is a happy day. We attended mass this morning, something we haven’t done in two weeks or so. The atmosphere in the church was so light and happy anyone can conclude that the people were really happy to celebrate Jesus’ resurrection. It was nice to attend mass again with my family.

I was left at home after the morning mass. Until now, while I’m writing this post, they aren’t here yet. It is nice being alone as I can cherish the temporary silence here in the house. Also, there are a lots of things that I can do. It’s really nice.

Nothing much anymore. I just hope Ginebra finishes Gilas in today’s game. Goodbye folks.

– Erson (5:21 pm)