Month: March 2011

Restart and recover

31 March 2011 | Day 027

10:14 pm

I’m excited today. And I feel like I’ve accomplished something to renew my old self.

Throughout this day, I’m really excited. Why? Well, simply it’s just a day (well, actually it’s just hours) away before I finally know my grades for the second semester. Most students won’t mind and others wouldn’t dare to think about grades. But I’m excited. I personally don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I fell (and I guess I know) I did better this semester than my opening half of my freshman year. Or maybe, it’s just because I’m really excited to know how I did for this sem.

I was checking AISIS regularly for the past three days and today, it was saying that I have a second semester QPI of 3.13. Well, not bad. It’s better than my 3.0 during the first semester. But it isn’t final yet. The admins are still updating the online database. I just hope…well…I hope it would be higher…at least reaching 3.35. I just want to make my parents happy. They said…they would be happier if I become a dean’s lister this semester. Well, I’m glad for the temporary 3.13 that I saw. But I want other people to be happy as well. Hopefully, it remains temporary until tomorrow when it reaches 3.35 (hopefully!).

I believe I accomplished something good today. I continued reading Angel (by James Patterson), which I started yesterday afternoon (and stopped one and a half hours after), and I read it for some straight hours, like I used to do before. Actually, I’m about to finish it before realizing that I haven’t written my blog yet. The book was good – as always (it is the last book, I believe, in Patterson’s epic series Maximum Ride). It still continues to give me thrill and excitement just like with the other books in the series. No wonder Maximum Ride is my favorite book series (suck your ass Twilight) and Max has become one of my favorite book characters. You must try reading it. It has a manga version too!

I guess that’s it for today. Hopefully, I become a DL this sem. If not, I’m happy with the increase in QPI. So long folks. Let’s fly like Max!

– Erson (10:30 pm)

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No practice equals “doom”

30 March 2011 | Day 026

7:56 pm

Today, I discovered that I forgot and lost a lot of things – important things – already. I’m doomed.

Firstly, I forgot some algorithms in solving my megaminx and other cubes. I was solving my megaminx just a while ago and I was stocked (again, like last night) in the part where I need to orient the edges. I tried a few moves, but it only messed up the dodecahedral puzzle. I tried an algorithm I use for the 2x2x2 cube and it worked somehow. But I’m sure it won’t work all the time since there is really a specific move to orient the megaminx’s edges. I eventually resorted to consulting YouTube again to search for the video where I learned how to solve megaminx.

I was irritated at myself.

You might say this is such a small thing to be frustrated about. But for me, it is not. I’ve been trying to establish myself in this mini field of speed cubing since I was in third year high school and I want to preserve it until I can. And I’m sure today is not the right time to stop preserving my talent. I can’t simply lose all that I’ve worked for.

Secondly, and I believe more importantly, I figured that I forgot some Math already. Yes, Math. My brother just asked me to help him with his Kumon homework before I started this post and I can’t answer it! It took me a while to solve it and I still doubt my answer. I needed to search the net to verify my answer. Eventually, it was right. But the mere fact that I forgot how to solve a simple question – after how many years of doing Kumon and learning good Math during high school – really really makes me hate myself. I can afford to lose some knowledge but not this! Even though my course (and I blame my course for this!) doesn’t require Math, I can’t lose my knowledge on it. Math is my favorite subject since I was young. I fell in love with it already. I can’t lose it this easy.

Lastly, I believe I don’t have that super and patient attitude towards reading books anymore. I was reading a book by James Patterson entitled Angel this afternoon and I lasted only until chapter 20. I just felt lazy. Normally, I would read any book and finish it for eight straight hours. Yet, today, it was just a bit more than an hour.

What’s happening with me? I don’t think this is good. Am I distracted by college? Am I becoming too lazy?

I can’t afford to lose all these in just a snap. I don’t want to be in doom.

– Erson (8:14 pm)

Mula sa Puso

29 March 2011 | Day 025

7:58 pm

A new teleserye in ABS-CBN is making me addicted.

I must admit Philippine melodramatic stories, movies and TV series never caught my attention except for Tayong Dalawa and the new Mula Sa Puso, which started yesterday in Channel 2. The new TV series, which is a remake of the original which starred Claudine Barreto and the late Rico Yan, has a full blast cast that include the likes of Dawn Zulueta and Eula Valdez.

The TV series made me interested for unknown reasons. Maybe it’s time for something new. Maybe it’s time to appreciate things that I never liked before. What I know is that ever since it started yesterday, I would want to continue watching it everyday. It may be corni for most of you. I also think it’s corni and baduy especially for a guy of my age. But, who cares? It’s time to start something new (oh my God, cliche!).

Hopefully, Mula Sa Puso would keep it’s thrilling attitude. I would always want to see muriatic acid being spilled on a character’s face (just like today’s episode)! And hopefully, this would make way for a new step for Philippine TV, and maybe also movies. Over the past years, our TV and movies featured cliche and jologs love stories, fantasy prime time shows (especially in GMA 7) with below mediocre effects and comedy shows that weren’t really funny but corni instead. Hopefully, we improve our TV and movie industry with this new exciting show.

I tried solving my megaminx, which I haven’t touched for about a month, today and I found I forgot one algorithm. It was sad that my memory seems to get weaker as I grow older. Or maybe I just lack practice. Who knows?

That’s it guys. Let’s watch Mula sa Puso tomorrow and see what happens.

– Erson (8:26 pm)

Victory on Monday

28 March 2011 | Day 024

9:29 pm

Mom woke me up early – so early – this morning at around 4 am.

Today was Angelo’s Recognition Day. I’m proud of him. He ranked 2nd (hey, that’s just 0.1 margin between his and the first honors’ general average) and had four or five other special awards. It was too good to see him receiving the fruits of his hard works. I know he deserved them for I saw him worked very hard over the past school year.

I can’t share anything more special today. I’m just happy for my bro.

 

– Erson (9:38 pm)

Batman and the new idol

27 March 2011 | Day 023

10:20 pm

Today is undeniably quiet.

I, together with my little bro, was left at home since morning until about 7 or 8 this evening. Mom and dad went buying some things in the supermarket and the groceries. Bro and I were left at home, basically doing nothing but eat and slouch.

I must admit Angelo has become more mature now. I’m happy that he’s growing. But I can’t help to be sad too. I would miss his sweet child attitude, his funny words and actions and his innocent and angelic childhood. He used to piss me when we’re left at home but today, he’s a little more quiet – a sign that he’s really growing up. Well, every man must grow up someday. Angelo can’t stay as a child anymore.

I was watching PBA a while ago. It was Smart Gilas (the Philippine team) against Powerade. Smart Gilas lost their 6-foot-11 import Marcus Douthit last time out due to injury. I watched it since I want to know how tough is this Philippine team and how can they compete without a foreigner back-up. I want them to win. They’re this country’s hope for Olympics after all.

First half was dominated by Powerade leading by as much as 23 sometime during the second quarter. Smart looked like they can’t come back anymore since they were out-rebounded big time. The thought of them winning just because of Douthit came to my mind. Yet, I was wrong. Yes, they won! (Spoiler. Boo.) And I was proud they did it on their own. I was pretty impressed with guard Marcio Lassiter. I can tell that he’s good with his stats as I see in news and websites but I never really see him play until today. I was impressed. He was aggressive, has a well built, has good dribbling and can shoot threes! He was responsible for Gilas’ comeback in the third canto along with the heroics of Aldrech Ramos and JV Casio and the intensity and good play making of Chris Tiu.

Lassiter had an all around game. He had 21 points, four rebounds, four assists and two steals – pretty impressive for a guard. I can say that he can improve more and he has still a lot to work on. But today, he became my new idol to go along side Kobe, Nash, and Caguioa.

Just minutes before I started writing this post, I just finished watching The Dark Knight again but this time with dad. He requested it as he saw it’s trailer in a mall’s TV store being played and thought it was good. So we watched it. I can’t deny that I’m still fascinated by Christopher Nolan’s direction of the movie. Joker, as performed by the late Heath Ledger, pretty much impressed me as well. Of course, there’s Batman, my favorite hero and perhaps this world’s best and most realistic super hero. As I finished the movie, the heat and passion for Batman started to become bigger again. Batman is simply my idol and my hero. I even want to be like him – at least have the same brains as his.

Well, that’s but a dream. But it isn’t impossible.

Hopefully, as my brother grows older, he would become as wise, as just, and as brilliant as Batman as I would want to be for myself. In any case I can’t pursue this dream, hopefully, he would compensate for my lost. He’s the best brother after all.

– Erson (11:02 pm)

The Hell Within

Communication in English II | Final Reflection Paper
Ateneo De Manila University
2nd Semester, S.Y. 2010-2011
My deepest thanks to Mr. Ryan Recabar for giving us this assignment.

I know that my entry here in Ateneo is hard-earned not only by me but also, most especially, by my parents. So do my entry in the dorm. The tuition and dorm fees are expensive – very expensive – and my parents need to work very hard to pay for it. My dad is a government agent who earns just enough for us without any extra for luxury. My mom used to work at an insurance company but is now stocked at home. I know…I know that studying here very well live to their saying “igagapang lang namin ang pag-aaral mo.”

Ever since I arrived in Cervini (the name of my dorm here in Ateneo), I expected things won’t turn out good. I knew I won’t live normally as I used to do in the province or even just live “okay” like during out campus seminars and trainings in high school. I was right eventually. Or I was wrong. I expected less.

My life in Cervini is worse than I’ve prepared for. My life in Cervini is a burning furnace. Most people here, sadly, are insensitive and air-heads and very few are disciplined. I know for a fact that I’m surrounded by rich kids who each have five personal maids at home. I also know that they’re educated people. They can’t enter Ateneo if they were not academically excellent after all. But majority of these “educated” and rich people have never experienced the bitter side of life. They’ve never experienced to be poor. They’re self-centered and have everything they want, which is evident with their imported Lacostes, pricey iPhones and multiple Nikes. They all have somebody to clean their rooms, to wash their dishes, and even to fix their beds in the morning.

As a result, Cervini is as dirty as a dump site. Plastics here, Styrofoam there. McDonald’s on one bed, KFC on another.  Not only that. “Battle ships” are always floating in toilet bowls every now and then. Do these people use their yaya(s) even just to flush their wastes? A huge number of people here also don’t know when to zip their mouths and be quiet. One great example is my roommate (who goes by an annoying name that starts with E) who is terribly noisy all the time. He’s selfish, doing whatever he wants even if I, or my other roommates, am studying, sleeping or simply wants silence. He plays DotA (a popular computer game) nonstop with his speakers and mouth in full blast. He has a dirty mouth. Yes, dirty – bad words come and go every five seconds.

One day, I got really pissed with E and plotted a way of pissing and annoying him back. I started to get food from him sometime during the middle of first semester. It lasted for weeks until one of my roommates, who I once caught also getting food from E, reported me to him. I can’t blame myself. You might have done something graver.

That doesn‘t apply to E alone. Almost everyone in this God-forsaken dorm is like that. They just enter our room without knocking and bang the door in full force. They play the guitar at 2 am while I’m sleeping. They shout, they run, they do everything they want at any time without even thinking of others. That’s why I sometimes regret my decision in going to Ateneo even if this university is the dream school of my life. I sometimes tell myself “What if I entered UP instead? At least people there aren’t that ‘rich.’ At least people there are of the same status in life as me.

I miss my old school, my high school and grade school. People there aren’t rich but have concern for each other. People are noisy and fun, but they know when to make noise and not. Not everyone is smart, not everybody can pay tuition but everyone helps each other; is sensitive to the needs of others; is simple; and knows how to flush the toilet.

There are hardly any perceptive people in Cervini. Most of them I can count with one hand. I guess I’m still lucky to have one of them as my roommate despite the series of very unlucky and uncomfortable events that have haunted me for the nine months of stay in the dormitory. Marvin, though not as neat with his things as anyone would want him to be, is the quiet type and the most respectful I could think of in the dorm. I sometimes see myself in him when he just walks out of our room whenever dormers flock in and laugh and shout boisterously instead of arguing with and shouting at them back. He knows when to be funny and when to be serious unlike others who only know “fun.” He even offers me help in some subjects – which is way different from the inconsiderate vast majority of dormers.

Why am I saying all this?

Well, I needed to pay dorm reservation for next school year’s first semester last March 7 due to the scarcity of a place to stay in Katipunan. Yes, I’ll be staying here again for who-knows-how-long. I’ll be in hell again. I tried to plead to my mom and ask if we could look for places once more. But I have really nowhere else to stay. The condominium they’ve been paying for some years now isn’t done yet. What can I do? Nothing. It’s sad to think that my life next school year would be sad again. I could only pray and wish to God that a miracle would happen.

Sometimes, I just wished I never got accepted in this dorm during my freshman application. Sometimes I wish they just kick me out. Sometimes I just want to go to a hotel and stay there. Most of the time, I want to go home.

Yet, Cervini may have been really meant for me. After all, it is just less than hundred steps before my first class. After all, it offers the luxury of waking up at 6:55 in the morning and still not be late for a 7:30 am Chemistry session. Maybe, I’m just too sensitive. Maybe, I’m just used to the tranquility of Bulacan. Or maybe not, too.

I never want to stay in this dorm again but if my parents think it would be for my own good and safety, even if it’s against my will, then I guess I just have to accept and live life. I don’t want to do my projects and assignments in this dorm again but if it is God’s will, even if it’s against my longing for home, then I guess I just have to follow.

Life isn’t easy after all.

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~ This article has been inspired by one of my posts in Daily Scribbles of the same title. You may have observed a switch in topics from the draft and the final paper.

~ On March 13, I and my parents found a place in Katipunan for me to stay at. Well, I won’t be staying in the dorm anymore. No more hell. God is really great.

Sleepy

26 March 2011 | Day 022

10:52 pm

This day is particularly tiring. Yes really. And very sleepy as well.

Today was my first official vacation day and I can only sleep and sleep according to plan. I need to cope with my sleepless nights and restless days in my first successful year in college.

Nothing great particularly happened today except for something I can’t share with you guys.

Around six this evening, I was watching Ong Bak 2. I found the first movie interesting so I decided to continue watching the series. I played it on our TV. The beginning was okay. Nice music, nice tribe, nice costumes. But as the movie progressed, it got a little boring. I realized something though, the subtitles are about three seconds late. Too bad I downloaded a wrong copy. Maybe that’s why I fell asleep while watching it. Unfortunately and obviously, I didn’t finish the movie. I have yet to download a better copy.

An earlier movie was way better. It was S.P.L (Sha Po Lang) or Kill Zone in English. It stars two of my favorite Chinese actors out there: Donnie Yen and Sammo Hung, who plays a great antagonist in movies. The story is revolves around cops and a gangster (Sammo Hung) who have killed and devastated a lot of people including one of the cops’ family. I can’t discuss the rest to you since I don’t want to spoil the fun. But I guarantee you that the ending is a must-see. It was simply unbelievable and fresh. In fact, better than most Hollywood movies out there.

Ginebra won today. As well as the Lakers. Cheers for my favorite local and NBA teams.

Until tomorrow. Have to catch some sleep.

– Erson (11:06 pm)